What our emotions and body are trying to tell us

When I was 27 years old I found myself in the hospital not being able to walk on my left leg, after losing all feeling in my left foot and calf.

I wasn’t worried or concerned, more annoyed. I thought, “I just pinched a nerve.”

You see, up until this point, I had been training and preparing to leave my Arabic translation position with the Department of Defense to begin as an agent with the FBI. I was two weeks away from entering The Academy and beyond excited for my new adventure to begin. I had been training for months to be fit enough for the physical testing and training that was soon to come. This included LOTS of running, so when my calf hurt, I thought I over did something which was normal for me to push myself beyond my limits.

However, I was in the ER trying to understand what the doctor just told me, “Brittany, you have a blood clot in your left leg. It almost passed the valve in your knee. This would have caused your heart to flood your lungs with blood. You are very lucky you came in. You almost died.” 

Instead of being in gratitude that my partner had pushed for me to go to the hospital I thought.. “What?! I am 27, you gotta be kidding me. This is not happening. Okay, well, I can push through and heal. I have two weeks to take it easy.”

When One Door Shuts…

Nope, the Divine had a very different idea for me. 

When I saw the hematologist I was praying over and over for this to just go away and for him to see I was young and can heal fast. I needed him to sign off on my training papers for me to continue the path I had worked so hard on carving out.

He looked me straight in the eye and said, “No, this is a death sentence. You have 2 genetic factors that caused the clotting. You will be on blood thinners for a very long time. While on the blood thinners, if you get punched too hard, fall, or the worst shot, you will have internal bleeding and will die.”

I felt like I got punched in the gut and did die. My entire life plan shattered. 

How could this happen? I was not a smoker, never pregnant, wasn’t flying on a plane…..did none of the things that instigated this!!  Nobody in my family had any idea we even carried these genes!! I was the healthiest person in my family and and the most fit. I felt betrayed by God once again and fell into despair. This plan was my golden ticket out and it just vanished.

Another Door Opens…

I was also chronically depressed. I hid it. I hid my sorrow, my pain, I hid my heart. I cried in the elevator going to work wishing for a way out daily. I used every sick day I could to lay in bed and sleep. I had horrible stomachs aches all the time and was constantly getting sick.

I pretended to be someone I wasn’t for so long that I forgot who I was. My body was taking the toll.

I had been trying to leave my position at the Department of Defense for several years, yet I wasn’t ready to leave my career as an Arabic Translator completely. Once I finally got the FBI position, I felt like I finally could look to the future and each day with joy and hope. I could breath again.

Yet my near death experience was the slamming of a door and forced me to look in another direction. It was like God saying “ENOUGH! This isn’t your path. You are so stubborn, we needed to force you to not make a physical move.”

That is when on bed rest I created a plan out that involved what my heart loved, interior design. I followed what brought me joy and opened a home staging and design company. It was so easy and I was busy immediately. Like everything was just waiting for me to make the jump.

A few years later I started an upholstery business (photo above).

My Heart Was The Cause

Fast forward 8 years, I found myself in a different type of training. Training to become a certified energy healer. 

During the training I learned that the Heart Chakra or this energy center located in the chest controls the energy or vital force in many parts of the body and one of those parts is blood flow and circulation. Blood clotting is a sign of a blocked heart chakra! 

It was in this moment I connected the dots that my Divine Vital Force or Prana, that flows through me and you, was blocked in my heart. My depression was a key sign there was a kink in my connection to my wholeness.

What really drove in the truth of this matter is that after I followed what brought me joy and left my job as an Arabic translator I stopped getting sick, the stomach aches went away and I was filled with energy. A sign I was in alignment.

What You Can Do

My hope and intention is to help stop you from having to experience any unnecessary pain. Near death experiences, diseases, or sicknesses can be avoided if we learn how to pay attention to the signs our emotions and body are sending us.

The first step is to ask yourself some difficult questions and to evaluate your life. Getting honest, real and raw with what is working and not working for you physically, emotionally, and spiritually. Most of us need a third party to help shine light on the shadows of ourselves we don’t want to see or those parts we have pushed away, we cannot see.

When working with clients for crystal energy healing sessions I would have them fill out many personal forms with many questions related to emotions and the body. One of those forms was a Chakra Quiz. This would support me in understanding where they may have a block and give me guidance on where to start.

I have shared this chakra quiz with you below. Click on the image to send you to a very fast and easy quiz to get you started. I hope this supports you on your journey. Please don’t hesitate to email me or connect if you have questions or want to understand yourself further.

xo, Brittany Fentress

brittany@nightbloomshaman.com

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